Thursday, October 29, 2009

Abiding Hope Collages

How perfect! Thank you Franchesca!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Happy Birthday Sullivan!

Happy Birthday sweet Sullivan!

Today was the day we were to hold you in our arms for the first time. Although it happened a lot sooner then we hoped or expected, not a day goes by that we don't think of you. You will always have a piece of my heart and I will always long for you in my arms. I know you are perfect in Heaven right now with Jesus but that doesn't mean I still can't want you here with us. As I have said before, you would have completed our little family but God had other plans. I do know that and it is all perfect in his plan.

Please know precious son how much we miss you and wish you were here. We all can't wait to hold you in our arms again one day! We love you!

Daddy, Mama, and Isabella

Sunday, October 11, 2009

My Heart

I have wanted to sit down and write a lot lately but my heart just hasn't been into it. Today I was to be induced to have Sullivan although his due date was the 21st. I still want to keep his due date as the 21st though. As I go through the next two weeks my heart is going to hurt and be so sad. It reminds me of our baby who is not in our arms with us. As I read on a lady's blog the other day who has also lost a child, I feel closer to God then I ever have before. He has carried me over the last several months and I just don't know what I would have done without him.

As we got through the month of October, please remember all the families who have lost babies. It is Pregnancy Loss Awareness month and tomorrow is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. October 15th. A day to remember our children. I encourage all of you to wear something Blue or Pink tomorrow for the day.
If you can, please light a candle tomorrow night during the 7 o'clock hour. It represents our babies that are no longer with us. They will be watching from above, and they need to see as many candles lit as possible.

International Wave of Light
The International Wave of Light sees participants participating from around the world starting at 1900 hours on October 15 in all time zones. Participants begin lighting their candles at 1900 hours and burn their candle for a period of at least one hour. The Result is a continuous chain of light spanning the globe for a 24 hour period in honor and remembrance of the children who pass away during pregnancy and shortly after birth. Candles can be lighted individually or in groups, in your home or in a community setting. Wherever you are, you will be joining an international wave of light in memory of all the children who have passed away during pregnancy and shortly after birth.

One last thing, although my heart hurts, this makes my heart feel so good. When she is laying in bed at night and she is so STILL (which she usually isn't during the day), my heart is overwhelmed with the love I have for my little girl. She is definitely our little miracle and so thankful for her. She brightens our everyday!

I said I wouldn't let her out in public like this one day. NEVER say NEVER!